My Awakening to the Sacred Feminine in the Braes of Balquidder 1996
In 1996, I attended a business workshop that had life-changing consequences for me in awakening to the Sacred Feminine. I did not know it at the time; in fact, I left the workshop rather bemused by the circular wheels that were used to illustrate the information being offered. When I spoke to the presenter at the end of the day, I remember saying that I did not quite “get it”, and yet I felt that I had just encountered something rather special.
He smiled enigmatically at me and told me he had felt much the same during his first encounter with this way of thinking. There was a conspiratorial air to his reply. The topic the workshop covered was about leading change through a blend of ancient “Earth Wisdom” and leading-edge Management Science. As I was leaving, he handed me a small flyer, called Maps of Balance, and said that his Earth Wisdom Teachers were coming to Scotland from California and that I might like to attend one of their “ceremonies”.
Mayan Hunab Ku, Sumerian Cross, Islamic Star, Buddhist Lotus,
Yin Yang I Ching, Nordic Sun Wheel, Celtic Cross & Hindu Yantra
I remember speaking to Flowering Rose who told me about the Ehama Institute holding, what she called, a body of ancient Earth Wisdom called The Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge. The Teachers were called RainbowHawk and WindEagle and she was sure I would really enjoy the weekend ceremony. She told me there would be an evening gathering at the Quaker Meeting House in Edinburgh where I could meet the Teachers and learn more about their work so we could decide if the weekend “ceremony” was for us.
Attending my first ever ‘Cornplanting’
So I booked my place and got there rather frazzled after a busy day at work. On arrival, I was invited to find a seat, I looked around the room and there must have been about a hundred people there and we were at the full capacity. There was a fun energy in the room and the Ehama team did seem quite calm faced with a room filled to overflowing. Then, I saw WindEagle for the first time.
She was wearing a full-length turquoise dress that seemed to consist of a number of layers. She was carrying a large feather and a bowl of sage and was gently wafting the smoke as she walked around the room. I was immediately taken with the sense of stillness that she exuded and the way she was taking in the room, and smiling at people, without making fully direct eye contact. Something within me felt very drawn to her, and I remember thinking this was how I would wish to be more often in my busy life of work and family.
Once everybody was introduced, Rainbow Hawk stood up and moved to the centre of the room. He had an incredible presence, he was very commanding: yet had a smile that softened his face. He spoke about the challenges of living in the modern era and how, as humans, we are often disconnected from conscious connection with the Earth. WindEagle then stood up and joined him in the middle of the room where she talked about this evening being a ‘Cornplanting’ which was a metaphor for planting seeds in the consciousness of people who may be called to the Ehama training programmes. Once again, I was intrigued. There was a fluency and beauty to this presentation that I had never experienced before. The evening was completed by an invitation to come to what they called a ‘ceremony’ in a stone circle near Balquidder in the land of Rob Roy.
The Call of the Land of Rob Roy
I went home that night and said to David that I thought we should
The ceremony was due to start at 5 pm on a Friday. So we decided to make a weekend of it and left at lunchtime on a warm and beautiful sunny June day. We traveled a seemingly long way down a dirt track to the site and when we arrived the location was quite breath-taking. A stone circle on the brow of a hill looked down onto two side-by-side Scottish lochs. In the distance over the rolling landscape, we could see the Scottish mountains. There was much bustling activity around the camp and we were greeted warmly and guided to where we were to put up our tent. I arrived with my pull-along suitcase and both it and I were ill-equipped for the bumpy grassland. Little did I know that my norms in the physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual realms were about to be shaken and stirred and I would be embarking on an adventure that continues to this day.
The Ceremony that Awakened my Sacred Feminine
I will share more of this ceremony in another contribution, what I wish to focus on here is my burgeoning
The ceremonial aspects of the weekend touched me profoundly – the Pow-Wow drumming resonated deep within me in such a surprising way. The sound enters your chest and simple
The second aspect of this awakening was my own experience of our time in
After breakfast on Sunday morning, the women were invited to gather in the Stone Circle and the men went down to the water. Once the women were settled in the circle, WindEagle looked at each of us in turn and began to speak. She said that she and RainbowHawk saw that the women here were hurting and that time to be together as women
She told us of the power of the Sacred Feminine and how the awakening and remembering of this in each of us was a profound pathway to healing and balance. I remember that I experienced what I can only describe as a bolt of energy shooting up through my spine and something deep within me shifted that has not since gone away. I saw that I was not conscious of this part of me and that I needed to make some shifts in how I operated in the world. There was a lot of emotion expressed at the end of our time together and lots and lots of hugging.
One of the things I remember about that morning was the song we sang and how, as we left the Stone Circle, we somehow all
We are sisters on a journey dancing in the sun
We are sisters on a journey singing now as one
Remembering the Ancient Ones
The Women and the Wisdom
The Women and the Wisdom
We all linked arms and started to sing as we marched down the hill. The men heard us and turned around to watch us coming down the hill and somehow they just knew what to do. They moved into two lines to welcome us and they were smiling and cheering us as we moved through the lines. I remember looking at RainbowHawk and he had tears in his eyes.
We were welcomed
We were beautiful
We were honoured
We were in our full power as Sacred Feminine beings
One of the things I did when I got home was to go through my clothes and take out those with big shoulders and big bows. I realised that I did not need to be that “big” anymore and that these clothes were part of my defense strategy. People also commented that I was a bit softer and less prickly. I have tears in my eyes as I remember that this was a truly transformational time for me, and for all of us.
I came home to something deep within that has never left me and is about who I am as a woman. I offer a deep bow of gratitude to my Teachers, RainbowHawk and WindEagle, for seeing what was needed and for guiding us to an understanding that was so life-affirming and transformational.
Two weeks later, David and I returned to the second ceremony the Ehama team where holding and a blessing for our forthcoming marriage was woven into the ceremony. Not only did we celebrate our marriage but also the marriage of the Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine in all of us. We all agreed that we were in a timeless time during that weekend and David and I could not have been more married. The civil ceremony was the icing on our Earth Wisdom wedding cake that we remember with such fondness.
And so began my life-long love affair with the Teachings of the Delicate Lodge. In dedication to my Teachers, I have recorded the song The Wild Mountain Thyme which we sang during our time in
(click the play icon below to hear the song)
Ann StarSong is the Chair of Center for Timeless Earth Wisdom which exists to foster and nourish the reconnection of people with the Wisdom of the Mother Earth by sharing, applying and evolving the Origin Teachings of the Delicate Lodge.
She is passionate about being a grandparent and in supporting members of her “baby boomer” generation to actively bring forward their wisdom in service of their families and their wider communities. Please see our Active Wisdom Programme that is in development by clicking here.
Ann StarSong and Prairie Dancer host an annual cycle of Seasonal Ceremonies – more information can be found on our website.